What we are not, can reveal what we are in essence
Every photograph I’ve ever made is a portrait of impermanence. After the shutter clicks, the subject changes. The light grows brighter or darker. A cloud moves. A flower fades. A child grows older. A face changes. Even mountains—given enough time—rise and disappear. Photography teaches an unavoidable truth: Everything we can see changes, is subject to entropy. Which raises one of humanity’s oldest questions: If everything about me changes—moment to moment—who—or what—am I?
For something to qualify as our true identity, our “essence,” the ground of our humanness, it cannot be subject to change. It can’t be anything that comes and goes over time.
In part, I’m contemplating this topic because I recently heard of someone who staunchly refused to do the morally right thing—or shift his belief—because he identified so strongly with a particular ethnic group. To generally paraphrase that mindset: “My people have an ancient history. Having been born into this group, their path is my path; I believe as they do, even if the world thinks otherwise. You ask who I am? I am one with my people, and I will defend them to the death. I am nothing without them.”
A staunch commitment like this, expressed as “I am my people” can start and maintain wars, racial and political conflicts and a host of other violent events. Vehemently claiming and clinging to an identity other than one’s true essence creates separation. And any attack on that identity, however subtle or overt, requires a counter attack—which is considered justified because it’s reciprocal. Thus the lesson of history: “war breeds war.”
Individually and collectively, we don’t yet know who we are.
I say “yet” because the consequences of the “separation paradigm” are proving to be disastrous and unsustainable. Eventually, we’ll learn that this perspective cannot sustain a civilization. It doesn’t support life.
What I am not
From their beginnings, the major religions and wisdom schools have provided a unified answer to the question of identity. But for the most part—and for a variety of reasons—it hasn’t taken root. Essences are rarely discussed or debated outside these and academic venues.
Our true identity, “essence,” is the core of our being, the most fundamental and intrinsic quality that makes us unique—one of a kind and unchangeable with time. As such, our essence is not subject to change. That being so, I can gain some insight through a process of elimination. For instance—
I am not my body, mind or thoughts. (They are constantly changing)
I am not my heritage or race. (These are properties of my body, not me).
I am not my DNA. (This blueprint for a particular body often changes. Mutates).
I am not my personhood. (I am not the person I was yesterday)
I am not my family or relationships. (I simply have membership in them. And they change).
I am not my house or neighborhood.
I am not my faith, beliefs, religion or philosophy.
I am not any of the schools I attended or organizations I belong to.
I am not my money, wealth or possessions.
I am not my gifts (talents or capabilities)
I am not my labels: name, roles, occupations or interests.
I am not my beliefs, values, intentions, perspectives, imaginations, dreams or aspirations.
I am not my faith, religion, ethnicity, culture or nation.
I am not my status, reputation, image, personality or history.
I am not my health or lack thereof.
I am not what I create or invent.
I am not what I consume.
And so on…
This doesn’t mean these aspects of our lives are unimportant. Our families, cultures, talents, beliefs and stories are precious expressions of who we are.
So What Am I?
I am that aspect of being that’s not—and never has been—subject to change; not in a process of becoming. We assign it different labels so we can talk about it, but the human essence across time and cultures is the same—
soul
spirit
light divine
divine spark
cosmic life-force
spiritual presence
higher Self
Atman (Hindu)
Pneuma (Greek)
Nitzotz (Hebrew)
Monad (Theosophy)
Agni (Vedic)
Buddha Nature
Jesus referred to it as I AM.
Our essence is believed to be eternal, one in being with the Creator, God, Source, the Ground of All Being, Infinite Intelligence. While our body-minds differ from one another, we each have the same divine spark within. It’s the basis for human unity—and our true identity.
If that’s true, how then shall we live?
If our deepest identity is not the ego-self but the soul, the life lessons are profound. Rather than “rules,” I would frame them as shifts in perception.
- Learn non-attachment: I have experiences; I am not my experiences. If the soul is the witness beneath changing conditions, then we can participate fully in life without being possessed by it. I have a story, but I am more than my history. The lesson is to Hold everything lovingly—but lightly. This is the wisdom behind the Buddhist teaching of “impermanence.” Suffering comes not because things change, but because we resist it, demanding that changing things provide our permanent identity.
- Learn humility: My perspective is not the whole truth. If my ego is not my essence, then neither are my opinions, beliefs or worldview. This is critically important socially. The ego says: “If you challenge my belief, you threaten me.” The soul says: “If you challenge my belief, you may help me grow.” That shift alone transforms marriages, politics, religions, cultures and nations. A soul-centered person is open, can ask: “What if I’m wrong?”
- Learn compassion: The same essence lives in everyone. In India the greeting “namasté” acknowledges the divine spark in each personal encounter. It says, in effect, “I honor that place in you where, when you are in that place and I am in that place, we are one.” If the deepest reality in me is also the deepest in you, then separation is ultimately superficial. The question becomes: “Can I see the soul beneath the behavior?”
- Learn forgiveness: Human beings are in a process of becoming. One of the great lessons of soul identity is patience with incompleteness. The ego asks: “Why aren’t you better?” The soul asks: “What are you still learning?” We’re all unfinished, works in progress. We are beings in the process of awakening to the reality of our true—divine—nature.
- Learn courage: Nothing real—essential—can be lost. A great deal of fear comes from defending temporary identities: status, possessions, reputation, youth. But seeing essence as more substantial than form, change becomes less threatening. The question shifts from: “What am I losing?” to: “What is life inviting me to become?” This is the spiritual meaning of transformation.
- Learn presence: This moment is where the soul lives. The ego spends much of life traveling backward into regret and forward into anxiety or dreaming. But awareness itself is always present. The soul encounters life only now. That’s why contemplative practices—including contemplative photography—matter. The camera (especially view cameras) slows us down enough to truly see: a leaf, a face, a beam of light, a shadow on a wall, a footprint in the sand. Minor White famously said, “Once it has selected a photographer, spirit always stands still long enough to be recorded.”
- Learn service: We are here to express and contribute, not acquire. If identity is ego-based, life becomes: “What can I get?” If it’s soul-based, life becomes: “How can I use my gifts to contribute?” The emphasis changes from: “What do I own?” to: “What can I give?” Our gifts, talents, creativity, and photographs are not who we are—they’re the ways our true identity expresses itself.
By strongly identifying with and clinging to anything that changes, life becomes a struggle to maintain what can’t last. By identifying with the soul beneath that which is impermanent, life becomes an adventure in growth, compassion, creativity and awakening. Ego strives to be special, particular, to stand out from the crowd. It’s concern is acquisition and tomorrow. Knowing our true identity, the soul guides us to become what we truly are—to be present and aware now. According to Teilhard de Chardin, “We’re spiritual beings having a human experience.”
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